I'm glad others see struggle as inspiration. That might sound sarcastic but it's not. I'm very thankful that one does not have to endure a difficult situation to understand the lesson from it and its benefits. I'm glad that hard times make people stronger and that even broken people can mend.
My stress eats me alive, but I'm learning. I'm learning to take time for myself. I'm learning that it's okay to cry and let it all out but only if you pull it back together and go on with life. I'm learning that watching an episode of Sons of Anarchy before bed is a good way to unwind and it's okay to allow myself that. This is very similar to another post I previously did about taking the time to go on adventures and learning that it's okay to go to a concert on a Thursday night as long as you get your work done.
I have BY FAR not mastered my anxiety. There are many days when I still feel like I can't get out of bed or nauseous before work but I've learned to push on.
If you follow me on Instagram, you'll see my post about letting go of what you can't change. This is my biggest goal in life at the moment. This is where my focus is and what I strive to do. Someone commented on that picture and called me inspirational, the reason why I started this post the way that I did. I'm thankful that others can find inspiration from my corny Pinterest pictures that I use because it's so difficult for me to find words.
That being said, blogging has become a more difficult task for me. I don't strive to write a post just to write a post although I apologize that that then causes long breaks between posts. I've been taking a lot of me time, alone. I hate being alone but I need it. No matter how many times I try to find words to explain my situation the right ones aren't there and I don't expect others to understand this mystery feeling I'm having and it's hard to understand someone like me who doesn't really understand why she's so stressed.
The lesson from this post is pursuing what you want. I'm not where I want to be, but I'm trying.
Love ya mean it,
Bailey xoxo
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Wednesday, March 4, 2015
"God will never give you anything you can't handle, so don't stress." -Kelly Clarkson
"God will never give you anything you can't handle, so don't stress." -Kelly Clarkson
Easy advice, right?
Stress is a nasty word. People throw it around like it is a normal everyday feeling like tired or happy but it's not. Yes, it is true that you can be simply stressed over a test and it can have little effect on you and diminish when the test is completed, but to many it is much more than that.
To me it is much more than that. To someone who battles with stress, even unknowingly in their most carefree moment, stress is an illness. I can feel as if I do not have a care in the world and then feel nauseous after I eat dinner because I am subconsciously worrying, stressing, about some unknown issue that my mind feels should be solved now.
I battle with stress daily. I am often sick, whether it is nausea, headaches, neck/back pain, being lightheaded, having an upset stomach, stomach pain, etc. All of this derives from worrying, something I cannot help. I do my best to not stress over issues that are out of my control but that is extremely more difficult than it sounds. My mind races, thinking of all possible solutions, sending me into a subconscious frenzy that I don't even know is happening. Relaxing helps. Baths, reading, resting all help but not completely.
This week I have had many obstacles to accomplish and although Spring Break is within reach, it isn't here yet. On my plate this week I have 3 tests, a quiz, a job application to complete, packing, a roommate search, car troubles to work out, disappearing friendships to try to repair, studying, neck pain, and the list goes on. I have tried my best to take these things one step at a time, which I feel like I am doing an okay job at. But when more than one thing hits me at one time I feel helpless.
I am trying to focus on the fact that Friday I will be en-route to Chapel Hill to spend time with my love and good friend and attend the UNC v. Duke basketball game but it is hard to stay motivated when I feel so frustrated.
I give you this rant in desperation of prayers. Prayers that I find a way to release some of this stress that resides in my body and live a more carefree life. I find inspiration to keep pushing through stressful times by Pinterest quotes (lame but it works) so here's one to help myself and others in the same boat as me.
Love ya mean it,
Bailey
xoxo
Easy advice, right?
Stress is a nasty word. People throw it around like it is a normal everyday feeling like tired or happy but it's not. Yes, it is true that you can be simply stressed over a test and it can have little effect on you and diminish when the test is completed, but to many it is much more than that.
To me it is much more than that. To someone who battles with stress, even unknowingly in their most carefree moment, stress is an illness. I can feel as if I do not have a care in the world and then feel nauseous after I eat dinner because I am subconsciously worrying, stressing, about some unknown issue that my mind feels should be solved now.
I battle with stress daily. I am often sick, whether it is nausea, headaches, neck/back pain, being lightheaded, having an upset stomach, stomach pain, etc. All of this derives from worrying, something I cannot help. I do my best to not stress over issues that are out of my control but that is extremely more difficult than it sounds. My mind races, thinking of all possible solutions, sending me into a subconscious frenzy that I don't even know is happening. Relaxing helps. Baths, reading, resting all help but not completely.
This week I have had many obstacles to accomplish and although Spring Break is within reach, it isn't here yet. On my plate this week I have 3 tests, a quiz, a job application to complete, packing, a roommate search, car troubles to work out, disappearing friendships to try to repair, studying, neck pain, and the list goes on. I have tried my best to take these things one step at a time, which I feel like I am doing an okay job at. But when more than one thing hits me at one time I feel helpless.
I am trying to focus on the fact that Friday I will be en-route to Chapel Hill to spend time with my love and good friend and attend the UNC v. Duke basketball game but it is hard to stay motivated when I feel so frustrated.
I give you this rant in desperation of prayers. Prayers that I find a way to release some of this stress that resides in my body and live a more carefree life. I find inspiration to keep pushing through stressful times by Pinterest quotes (lame but it works) so here's one to help myself and others in the same boat as me.
Love ya mean it,
Bailey
xoxo
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