"God will never give you anything you can't handle, so don't stress." -Kelly Clarkson

"God will never give you anything you can't handle, so don't stress." -Kelly Clarkson
Easy advice, right?

Stress is a nasty word. People throw it around like it is a normal everyday feeling like tired or happy but it's not. Yes, it is true that you can be simply stressed over a test and it can have little effect on you and diminish when the test is completed, but to many it is much more than that.

To me it is much more than that. To someone who battles with stress, even unknowingly in their most carefree moment, stress is an illness. I can feel as if I do not have a care in the world and then feel nauseous after I eat dinner because I am subconsciously worrying, stressing, about some unknown issue that my mind feels should be solved now.

I battle with stress daily. I am often sick, whether it is nausea, headaches, neck/back pain, being lightheaded, having an upset stomach, stomach pain, etc. All of this derives from worrying, something I cannot help. I do my best to not stress over issues that are out of my control but that is extremely more difficult than it sounds. My mind races, thinking of all possible solutions, sending me into a subconscious frenzy that I don't even know is happening. Relaxing helps. Baths, reading, resting all help but not completely.

This week I have had many obstacles to accomplish and although Spring Break is within reach, it isn't here yet. On my plate this week I have 3 tests, a quiz, a job application to complete, packing, a roommate search, car troubles to work out, disappearing friendships to try to repair, studying, neck pain, and the list goes on. I have tried my best to take these things one step at a time, which I feel like I am doing an okay job at. But when more than one thing hits me at one time I feel helpless.

I am trying to focus on the fact that Friday I will be en-route to Chapel Hill to spend time with my love and good friend and attend the UNC v. Duke basketball game but it is hard to stay motivated when I feel so frustrated.

I give you this rant in desperation of prayers. Prayers that I find a way to release some of this stress that resides in my body and live a more carefree life. I find inspiration to keep pushing through stressful times by Pinterest quotes (lame but it works) so here's one to help myself and others in the same boat as me.

Love ya mean it,
Bailey
xoxo